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parents, in compliance with the wishes of Mr. I stood up, and addressed the assembled church, (it being church night.) I stated my christian experience briefly, for it was the first time I had ever spoken in a public assembly of persons, and being naturally of a reserved and nervous habit, I felt much agitated. I was, however, encouraged by the kind manner in which I was received, and looked upon those present as brothers and sisters in the Lord. I thought, within myself, what have I to fear, I have only plain facts to state, and that in the presence of my Heavenly Father, of my blessed Redeemer, and of his dear children. However illiterate and plain my words might be, I knew that due allowance would be made for any defects of speech, and that, what I should say, would not be criticised. As soon as I had ceased speaking, I was baptized in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost. I now inwardly resolved, with God's assistance, to withstand all things that might tend to separate me from the love of Jesus. For some weeks previous to my baptism, my poor wife guessed what was about to take place. She had approved of the decision to which I had arrived of following

Christ, but was averse to my making it publicly known. I made no promise to her on the subject; every time therefore, I came home from attending divine service, she passed her hand over my hair, to find out if I had been baptized. This she invariably did, except the very night on which I was baptized. However strange it may appear, she then omitted her usual practice, being so busily engaged in her domestic occupations, that she had not leisure to attend to any thing beyond her usual questions about the sermon, &c.

A few days after this, Mrs. W. the person I have before spoken of, called to see us, and mentioned to my wife the occurrences of the 26th. To my great astonishment, she was quite reconciled to what had taken place, which I looked upon as another of the many mercies I was receiving at the hands of the Lord. She was, however, most anxious to hide the circumstance from our family. Such, however, was not my wish, for I felt it to be my duty to apprize them of it, and leave all consequences to the direction of Him who doeth all things well. Mrs. W. was alarmed at my intention, and begged me not to disclose it. She was a tenant of my father, and already suspected of being

instrumental in drawing me away from Judaism; she was also a member of the church where I was baptized, and she dreaded lest my parents' displeasure should fall upon herself. To relieve her mind, I agreed to ask Mr.'s advice, which I accordingly did. His opinion was that I should conceal the circumstance for the present. I told him I knew that ere long they would be put in possession of the facts by strangers, and I considered that were I to go myself, to my parents, depending upon the Lord to give me words to speak to them, the blow might be less severe coming from me than from others. Mr. thought it unadvisable that I should pursue such a course. He considered that I should be unnecessarily incurring persecution. He assured me, at the same time, that none of the members of his church would inform my parents, and they could not possibly hear of it from any other source. I still therefore kept up a friendly intercourse with my Jewish friends.

I now not only enjoyed the ministration of the word under Mr., but occasionally I went to hear the venerable Mr. Wilkinson, and when I considered the peace and quiet I had enjoyed there, before I came to Mr.

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chapel, I acknowledge that I was sometimes tempted to regret the exchange. Then would I think of my dear Saviour's words, "I came not to bring peace on earth, but division." felt how much perverseness and rebellion still remains in the heart, even after a work of grace has been commenced, and would cry, “Lord, not my will but thine be done." As a member of Christ, I was admitted to the communion of the Lord's Supper. I delighted in it as a most solemn and refreshing ordinance. To my humble view, it appears that the institution of the Lord's Supper is a commemorative ordinance. "For as often as ye eat this bread and drink this cup, ye do shew the Lord's death till he come." Now as this ceremony stands in connection with the Jewish feast of Passover, perhaps you will feel interested, if I state a few facts, and make some observations which may tend to make clear what so many faithful but timid followers of their Lord and Saviour consider too mysterious and solemn an ordinance for them to be permitted to partake of. Of the institution of the Passover, I need say nothing, for it is clearly defined in Holy Scripture, especially in Ex. xii. The modern Jews observe the feast in a manner as near the letter of

the ordinance as present circumstances will permit. All leaven is removed from their houses, and a supply of unleavened bread (or passover cakes,) sufficient for the use of the family, during the whole week, is previously obtained. The poor are supplied from the funds of the synagogue, and from the contributions of their more wealthy brethren. The habitations of all, from the richest to the poorest, are thoroughly cleansed, and the ordinary culinary utensils are laid aside, to make way for others used only on the eight days of this feast. It is really an interesting scene to witness the preparations for the celebration of the Passover; it is a very busy season. So scrupulous are they that every particle of leaven should be removed, that the Rabbies enjoin every head of a family to examine most carefully every corner of his apartments, to prevent, if possible, the smallest portion of leaven from remaining in his house. This act is performed on the evening prior to the day appointed for the commencement of the festival. O that my dear Jewish brethren would consider what their all-merciful and gracious Father says to them, by the mouth of his Prophet, Isa. i. 16, &c. "Wash you, make you clean, put away the

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