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“I will make you Fishers of Men." will love you ; praying that the Lord may

plough up all twitch in me, and purify me; MY DEAR BROTHER GARRARD, IN The still I dare not “call that common which LORD JESUS CHRIST,

God hath cleansed.” As you wished me to write to you, I cer- My dear brother, I was very much edified tainly do feel a great pleasure in believing and interested in reading your account of that you feel a wish to know whether I am “ The Gospel Fishery.' It appears you pressing toward the mark for the prize of think almost all the fish are caught at the high calling of God in Christ Jesus. Leicester ; but I cannot help thinking but I shall not lag behind in this case, but tell that a few more may yet be caught with you something of the liberty I have enjoyed hook and line ; for there are some that lay this morning. I got up very dark and dead down deep in the mud and dark holes, so in my soul; saying to myself“ I shall never that it requires you to have patience, and get through: this body of sin and death will you may catch some of them, for you caught be the end of me. But I will leave the me there in that way, so that I could not things which are seen, and look at the things get away from you: you know that you which are not seen. The Lord then came caught me there, and I was obliged to speak into his garden, and I saw and felt the good to you, and went home with you, and you ness of God; I felt that “God was love," told me that “ the Lord would take care of made up of love: and I, feeling his love, was me;" and I believe that he will, for he has led in some measure to know what it is to not forgotten me yet. eat the flesh of the Son of Man, and drink When I went to St. Martin's Church, I his blood; it was in my mouth as sweet as laid deep at the bottom, in the mud, and honey; I eat it; I eat love; and love is of could not get out, though I desired to swim God, that which comes from God, and “ God in pure water, but thought it was not for me, is love." I have heard my mother say that but for those who were entitled to it by she had a sister as was su fond of her, that good works, and not for such dirty fish as she would kiss her until she bit ber; but I was. I laid like a little fish at the bottom, then this carnal love ebbs and flows, but not in the mud hole, and could let the great fish so with God - I ate the love which was com- swim over me, until you put your hook right municated to me by the Holy Spirit; I felt down to the bottom, right into the very what it was, in some degree, to eat the flesh thoughts where I laid, and you pulled me of the Son of Man, “Jesus Christ, the same to the surface of the water, and washed the yesterday, to-day, and for ever." I find there dirt out of my eyes, so that I was enabled to is no such a thing as exhausting this foun- see where I was, blinded with laying in the tain; the more we have, the more we want. mud and filth of my own righteousness. I I did think of writing to you a dull epistle sometimes look at the mud hole where I of my sins, but, as Jesus Christ has assured once lay, but by the power of the water of me that he has put them away, and let me life I am kept up, and swim sometimes in look into the book of things which are not love. May the Lord keep us out of bondage ; seen, I give you that which he has given to my flesh is always waiting to find some good ine. I have heard you preach on the love in itself, but I find there is death in all my of God, and my soul could follow you works, but life in the work of the Spirit. through a great part of it. Oh, how thirsty The Lord has greatly blessed me of late, this love makes us ; there is no such a thing insomuch as I have been enabled to live in as quenching our thirst here ; and when we the Spirit, and walk in the Spirit, and rehave once drank bere, no other water will joice in Christ Jesus, and “have no confido; no muddy waters will do then, it must dence in the flesh.” My inward desire is be clear as crystal ; I feel that all the waters to live godly in Christ Jesus, humbly deare filthy and muddy save that which the siring that the Lord will make me sincere, Lord Jesus Christ gives ; and I find these willing to live honestly. waters which the Lord Jesus gives me have Nov. 19, 1846. JOHN SMITH FOWLER. no bottom. O, the deeps! and I can swim. MY DEAR FOWLER,

And, now sir, tell me if your spirit wit- My son in the faith of the glorious gospel of nesseth with my spirit, when you have read Christ, I call you mine, because you were this letter; and whether you think I am caught on my hook and line, and brought to taught of God. I only send you what has Christ under my feeble preaching. I am been given me since I sat down, believing happy to hear that you are brought into the that you will tell me, by the Holy Ghost, garden, a better garden than that which whether I am of a right spirit. Do you say father Adam was turned out of for his sin ;

Onward, boy, in the great work ?". For I the garden of spices, which is the church of must tell you that I often in gloom have to Christ, where you are privileged to eat the call myself to accounts, as to whether the sweet and soul-comforting fruits of the work is of God. Oh, don't try to please me “Tree of Life," and to swim in deep and in this matter; tell me of my faults, and I clear " fish-pools of Heshbon, by the gate VOL. III.

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of Bathrabbim." Song vii. 4. For the fallen into, and have caused them to go light of Christ's body, mystical, is the eye: hobbling along with broken bones all their like the fish-pools of Heshbon. Thus you journey through the wilderness; but, alas ! may swim in the light, life, and love of the alas ! how have I lived to prove, to my sorLord ; and these very clear fish-pools, the row and grief, that the backslider in heart eyes of the church, reflect the very image of shall be filled with his own ways: and I find, Jesus, as face answereth to face in water."

my dear sir, I have greater enemies to conThus he sees his own image in the eyes of tend with than I once thought I should ever the new man of every believer; and these meet with, and these dwell in my own base very people are said to be “the apple of heart—for I find everything there that is Christ's eye,” or the little man of his eye, for opposed to that holy principle which I desire if you look into a person's eye it reflects a to have, if it is not implanted in my heart. little image, a little man. Thus the church But here satan accused me with hypocrisy in is said to be kept as the "apple," or "little this matter, telling me I have no desire to

eye, for his church is always in forsake sin as well as confess; if I had, I his eye, every moment; and when our eye should be more freed from it: but here I can is single, and fixed on him, the body is full call God to witness, that only on yesterday of light.

Come, house of Israel, let us my humble protestation at his dear feet was, walk in the light of the Lord.”

that he knew my heart, and he knew that it It gives me pleasure to hear that you are was my earnest desire to be entirely freed walking in the light of the Lord's counte- from sin, both in thought, word, and deed ;

But remember that you will have but, alas ! I find it to be otherwise. 0! some nights as well as days, and you must how I have searched the word of God, and not be frightened like a child in the dark, if read the experience of good men, to see if I. you have sometimes to go to bed without a could happen to meet with any one so vile candle ; for the “Lord will light your as myself, but I cannot find any description candle" again when it is really needful, and of character to resemble my own case; but, " the watchman of the night saith the morn- I did find, in reading your letters, a oneness ing cometh ;” and the Sun of Righteous- of spirit, a kindred feeling, a flowing out of ness will arise again with warming, com- my soul in prayer to the dear Lord on your fortingand healing influence, in his behalf. O! what brokenness of spirithealing wings of light and love.

what a willingness to be anything or nothing Farewell, and the God of peace be with so that Christ may be all in all. But, 0! you. My son, be strong in the grace that my dear sir, how seldom do these seasons is in Christ Jesus.

occur, and how short their duration—I soon A WATCHMAN ON THE WALLS. return to my own place, filled with unbelief Leicester, Dec. 9, 1846.

and rebellion, and my heart seems to get as

hard as adamant. 0! let me entreat of you A Broken-hearted Sinner. to remember a poor sinner when it go well

with you when at the feet of your dear

Lord and Master-tell him a poor brokenDEAR SIR, I am very much exercised hearted sinner desires to be with him where about writing to you lest I should write any- he is, and to behold the light of his lovely thing that would prove to you that I was a countenance. 0! my dear sir, I beg you base hypocrite, which I am often tempted to will pardon the great liberty I have taken in believe I really am, and yet I cannot, I dare writing to you. I shall not disclose who I not, withhold my testimony at this time; for am, nor what I am, to you at this time. I in reading your letters at the beginning of have only just received the first and second the first volume of the Earthen Vessel, I there volumes of the Earthen Vessel, but I could had my heart with all its exercises opened not refrain telling you what I have told you ; up, and my character drawn in such colours and if the dear Lord should condescend to that I could not proceed, for my heart was break in upon my soul, I may perhaps write overwhelmed with love and gratitude to, my to you again. For the present, I say, faredear Lord that my eyes flowed with tears, well: and may the Lord abundantly bless and I could not restrain them—not that you you, and lead you into all truth as it is in were overtaken in sin, but because the dear Christ Jesus, is the prayer of a poor Lord had brought you back again with

PARTICLE OF Dust. weeping and with supplication. I was led to think that the time was at no great distance

Poor “ Particle of Dust,"—When we read thy when the dear Lord would turn my capti- letter we had these words dropped into the soul-"He vity, and restore to my soul the joys of his will hear the prayer of the destitute, and not despise

then came Jer, xxx, 17; and Jer. salvation. I well remember the time when I their prayer;'

xxx. 17. Read these Scriptures, poor “ Particle of thought that my mountain stood so strong Dust,'" _Who can tell ? But let us hear again. We that I should never fall into those things have much to do in the Hospital, Many true soldiers which some of the Lord's dear family have have been wounded of late.

Gleanings from the Vintage.--No. 2. not be a greater judgment come upon a man

than to be given over to his own heart—he Extract from a Sermon by Mr. JAMESWELLS, feels that he might as well be given up to the

on Sunday Evening, March 30, 1844, at devil himself. As far as outward appearance the Surrey Tabernacle, Borough Road, from goes, it seems to the man that he is given up Revelation viii. 5.

to a reprobate mind. Of all the afflictions of This book was given as much for the in- Lot, his being given up to the lusts of his struction of the Lord's people, as any other own heart was the worst. Of all David's part of the Bible : it is both an external and afflictions, his being given up to the lusts of an internal history of the church, from the his own heart was the worst. Of all the beginning of the Gospel dispensation down afflictions of Peter, his being given up to the to the end of time. Before the seventh deceits of his own heart was the worst. The trumpet has sounded, all public preaching in Lord's people may, in many respects, be England and Wales must be put down. All given up to their own hearts, but it is only desires which the Holy Spirit creates must to a certain extent—it is only for a limited be pure desires. Without the Lord Jesus time. But God will take care that they Christ there would be no prayer at all; for shall not be finally left in that state. No, He is the root of prayer as well as the power of prayer. I cannot agree with those great

Though thousand snares enclose their feet,

Not one shall hold them fast.'' men who say that the prayers of the Lord's people are sinful: you might as well tell me They may be given up to their own hearts, that godly fear is sinful, and that faith is but not to the gross devices of their own sinful. Neither am I an admirer of those hearts. Was Saul of Tarsus, previous to his words of Mr: Newton :

conversion, given up to the gross devices and " Sin is mixed with all I do."

desires of his own heart? No. Touching the We can pray for nothing by the Holy Spirit been given up to his own heart more than

law he was blameless. Yet, who could have which Christ has not already prayed for. Jesus Christ pleads our cause by his most in which we may be given up to our own

was Saul of Tarsus? But there is a sense precious blood ; and his intercession, and hearts fatally. The doctrines of grace may our desires run together. Prayer is nothing be, and they are too, held by thousands of else but the souls of the people of God groaning, and longing, and desiring, and professors. Moderate Calvinists, and even supplicating those blessings which God has hold and believe in the great doctrines of

among the high Calvinists too, may designed to bestow; and he will do no more than he has designed.

There is no such grace, but do they hold them tremblingly-do thing as duty-prayer. The Lord brings all they hold them as matters of the most vital his people while in the world

into a personal importance ? No--they do not. To hold knowledge of his everlasting covenant, and for me? or did he not? Am I numbered with

them tremblingly is to feel-did Christ die he gives them a rooted disposition to receive the family of God, or am I not?

Am I init before they go hence. When a man is made sensible of what he is, he can find no terested in the great atonement of Christ, or rest but in the immutable oath of God. Real

am I not? My doom is fixed-irrevocably religion is a looking after God in his eternal fixed, and cannot be altered. This is to hold covenant-real religion puts the people of

the doctrines of grace tremblingly. Why God where the world would not think of look- would Eli's sons not hearken to the reproof ing for them. They would not think of

of their father? Because the Lord intended looking for the people of God in the everlast- to destroy them, and had given them up to ing love of God; in the righteousness of

their own hearts. The people of God would

have been damned a thousand times if such a God; in his everlasting covenant. If

you can show your religion to the world, it is no

thing were possible, if they had been upheld religion at all. It is a great mercy to be by anything short of almighty power and enabled to distinguish from all the voices of mercy; and when the Lord holds his people the time, the voice of Christ. The Lord's up, it is then they can rejoice. people are awkward things to fight against- "«Tis heaven to rest in his embrace, no weapon formed against them shall prosper.

And nowhere else but there,” “Whosoever shall offend one of these little The Lord has put his people out of the reach ones, it were better for him that a mill-stone of destruction; they were destroyed in Adam, were hanged about his neck, and that he but they were saved in Christ; the life which were drowned in the depths of the sea.”

they had in the first Adam will die; but the Extract from a sermon, by Mr. James Wells, life which they have in Christ will never die

on Friday Evening, April 24, 1846, at Red in him they have an inheritance "incorCross-street Chapel, City, from Exodus ruptible, undefiled, and that fadeth not

xix. 4, 5. Of all the judgments under heaven there can

away."

Letters addressed to Mr. W. ALLEN, | verance, and then again the clouds would Minister of the Gospel, Cave Adullam,Stepney. unbelief, mistrustfulness, and impatiency,

gather thicker and faster, and the spirit of No. I.

would muster up all their force to drown my

little hope and faith. But some of these Dear friend and brother in the only one and dark days outwardly were bright days in. true gospel of Jesus Christ.

wardly, and the love of God was shed abroad Seeing the Lord had made use of your abundantly in my heart to that degree, at mouth to speak to my heart, sermon after

times, that I was afraid that deliverance sermon, in so conspicuous a manner made would come, and I then should be delivered me a little bold to declare unto you the same, from that sweet and strong communion that but, now the storm being greatly abated and I often enjoyed with my God in secret. Infiner weather succeeded, we, sailors, can talk deed, I can truly say these days of adversity a little about past dangers, and tell how the were some of the old weather-beaten sailor's ship behaved in the storm, &c.; and it is golden days, and I knew in some measure experience in these things that make mani- what it was to rejoice in tribulation. Oh! fest how we act in and weather every storm, blessed rich poverty !-oh! blessed sweet every trial, every temptation ; but, as I bitter distress !-oh! blessed shining lights must not take up much of your time, I must in darkness! Grace had made my heart so cut things as short as possible. About four honest, that I dare not borrow of the people or five weeks ago, it pleased my God and in the house, to whom I was deeply in debt Saviour, who is the God of all providence, to for shelter, and I dare not go any more in shut up every way of employment, and I had trust at the chandler's shop, being six shilbut eightpence to begin the world with ; and lings already in debt: but there was one being one of those sheep that is compelled spot in the distress troubled me not a littlethrough sheer necessity to live by faith, from I could not get a candle to read the word of day to day, upon the providence of God, I God at night ; but necessity is the mother of must say in the late storm I was often invention, I therefore (having some tallow brought to my wits' end, day after day, and which I used at my work in sail-making), week after week; I wandered here, there, and made a lamp of a little gallipot with a cotton everywhere, where I thought there was the wick; and this served to read by for several least hope, till I wore my shoes out ; but nights: and how I lived and was kept alive every week the cloud appeared to get darker in this day of famine would be too tedious and darker, and the darkest cloud that hung here to mention, and would more than fill over my head was, the debt for shelter and a this paper. little daily food at the chandler's shop; and During this interval the Lord constrained when it amounted to six shillings I had no my heart to go to the Cave Adullam, and more heart to increase it greater, therefore the Lord the Spirit led you to speak of determined within myself to live upon bread every step of the road that my heart was then and water: indeed, I was brought to that at travelling in—and seeing very plainly that last, and sometimes to nothing—not a bit of you had travelled in the same road, and bread in the cupboard, and not a bit of coal knowing you (by what I have felt in my to make a fire to warm my old frame in the heart under the word), to be a servant sent to late bitter cold weather-not a penny in the the church, to declare the truth by experiworld, and nothing to make one of—and not ence: I say, these things often lifted my having a soul upon the face of the earth to com- drooping wings, for almost every discourse municate with, either in the church of God. seemed to be directed to me in particular, or in the synagogue of satan, or in the pro- and I often returned home (though deeply fane world ; and being an outcast from the indebted there for rent), with a lifted-up above three societies, I was compelled to go to countenance. There were two things in all God alone, who has so marvellously delivered this dark cloud that preserved me from murme in time past, for many years, when under muring, repining, rebellion, and discontent; the same and like circumstances. Now was one thing and the principal thing was, I often the time of prayer indeed, night and day, felt the love of God in my heart : and the with strong cries, groans and tears, and deep other was, I knew the good and all-wise ejaculations of heart; indeed, no one but Physician was acting medicinally, for the God alone has known my sufferings in the good of my immortal soul by half starving late trial, neither did I wish to let any man the flesh, to cast those devils out that had so know but God alone, who I well knew, by much annoyed my peace, ever since the day many a lesson, that I had formerly learned of my most wonderous and miraculous conin the same school of Christ, that he was version, on March 10, 1812, as it is recorded able to deliver ; and very frequently a gleam in my narrative. of hope would at times break through these I have but spoken a little of the trial, but dark clouds, and seemed to give me a little now to the better part—the day of deliverance hope that God would at length send deli

--and I have found Jesus Christ still to be

what he ever was and ever will be, a God-BROKEN HEARTS. They sat in the judgment-
hearing and a God-answering prayer. Every chair on many much better taught than
method had failed that I had put my hand to themselves. These things made their con-
for deliverance; but, as I was returning versation and company irksome to me, and I
home from the city last Monday week, the wished to leave them altogether. I also
Lord put it into my heart to call at the thought that if I went to London there
Trinity-house, upon Tower-bill, (I had been might be a better prospect, both for my
calling the Trinity-house in heaven, for business, and to preach the gospel, if the
three weeks), saying within my heart, surely Lord had designed me for the work ; for it
I have some claim, upon them; and that night was still a question with me, except when
wrote a petitioning letter to the secretary: the Lord comforted my heart in delivering
on Tuesday morning it was presented. The his truth.
Lord had gone before me, and softened the “When I had thought these things over,
hearts of those great men. I was presented a thought for the first time struck me, that I
before the board; several questions, &c. were should like, if it were the Lord's will, to
put to me, which I answered to give them alter_my condition before I left Plymouth,
every satisfaction. The Lord enabled them that I might have a home, and a friend, and
to see my distress; moved their hearts to share our joys and sorrows together. I had
sympathy; I was taken into their considera- serious thoughts on the subject, and well
tion that day as the chief petitioner of considered the matter ; which, I fear, is not
respect; and after they had done with me in always done, even by God's people.
the committee-room, I had to wait in the “ The words, 'In all thy ways acknowledge
hall about two hours for an answer; and him,' at this time, as well as on many for-
almost every five minutes of the two hours mer occasions, were much impressed on my
my heart was going up to the Trinity-house, mind; for if a believer be not guided by
in heaven. In due time I was called and the Lord, he will make a wrong choice and
presented with two pounds in gold. What that to his sorrow. The desired object was
effect this immediate answer from God had cast in my way without my seeking; and
upon my heart and weeping eyes, I must March 14th, 1803, I entered the honourable
leave you to judge, having been brought state of marriage, with an intention to go
into the same spot: and in ecstacy of joy I forthwith to London : but 'man's goings
left the Trinity-house upon Tower-hill with are of the Lord, how, then, can he under-
the Trinity-house in heaven in my heart; stand his way?' With a wife the Lord sent
flew home immediately, paid all my debts, me plenty of labour week after week, so
and well furnished the cupboard with bread, that I could not leave without resisting the
butter, tea, sugar, soap, candles, wood, coals, dictates of conscience, and the manifest in-
&c.—and have been enabled to act like the terpositions of providence. I still, month
widow of old, whom the Lord set up as an after month, entertained some hopes that my
oil-merchant, out of a pint of oil, and lived way would be made clear to go to London,
since upon the rest. I am now out of debt but all in vain at that time. Some circum-
and have four shillings in the bank, (in the stance or other continually thwarted my in-
till of my chest)—and besides all these tentions, so that I came to a conclusion that
things, a little faith in the Great Bank of it was the will of God for me to remain at
God, the Lord Jesus Christ. I therefore Plymouth. My mind thus settled in regard
humbly desire that you and your companions to the leadings of divine providence, I looked
will assist the old sailor to praise the Great more to the thing in hand, and pursued my
Deliverer of all his poor out of all their dis- business with better spirits; and the Lord

God be with you. Amen. prospered our labours so as to enable us to
GEORGE THOMAS WOOD. provide things honest in the sight of all

men.'

But these temporal blessings, which Life of the late Henry Fowler.

are from the Lord, were followed on my

part with too much anxious thought about (Continued from p. 284, Vol. II.)

the things of this world, which perish with “ About the close of 1802, it struck me the using; and by degrees I grew lukewarm that I would leave Plymouth, and settle in or rather cold in the things of God. I had London, and that for three reasons. First, now a wife to provide for, and a family in my labour began to fall off; and to be desti- prospect, and little or nothing of this world's tute of sufficient labour is distressing to an goods. As I thought that it was the Lord's honest, poor man. Second, I had as far as will for me to abide in and live by my labor I could see, very little success in preaching, at my civil calling, I became indifferent after labouring some time, in different places about preaching, and thought if the Lord occasionally. Third, I perceived a vast deal had designed me for the ministry, he would of wildfire, and frivolity, in many who ranked have made it appear before that time; behigh among the people with whom I was sides, I thought that if I attempted to attend acquainted—they had gospel heads but not to preaching, I should be neglecting my

tresses.

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