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10th Mo. 16th. On sitting down in Meeting to-day, my mind became seriously affected; and I was strengthened, in some small degree, to maintain the watch.-The blessing pronounced on the poor in spirit was brought to my remembrance. I also recollected the prayer of Augur; and was desirous to be able truly and from my heart to adopt it. "Give me neither poverty nor riches; feed me with food convenient for me;" O! the safety of this state of mediocrity, both spiritually and temporally!

After I wrote the foregoing, at bed-time, having ventured on my knees at the bed-side, I was enabled to look towards his holy temple. How greatly does feeling surpass words, but how much more difficult to come at !

11th Mo. 16th. Oh! for more of the lamblike disposition of him, "who, when he was reviled, reviled not again; when he suffered, he threatened not; but committed himself to Him that judgeth righteously.". I have often observed how great an advantage those have,

■ Ps. xxxvi. 7. b Prov. xxx. 8.

• 1 Pet. ii. 23.

who are so much on their guard, as to maintain strict calmness, and coolness of temper under provoking circumstances; and, on the other hand, what a loss and disadvantage it is to give way to any severe or petulent expressions, even when we think ourselves badly used.

17th. In our Meeting to-day, I was poor and dry, and too much gave way to wandering thoughts; yet in the forenoon, being led to consider a little the emptiness, of the form in which we meet, unless we are rightly engaged when there, it appeared to me that, though we may feel little ability to come at that which we profess to wait for; yet it is right that we should assemble with our brethren: it is at least bearing our testimony against the ever ready exertions of a man-made ministry, and shewing our belief in the power of Him, who can teach his people himself.

END OF THE DIARY.

ADDENDA.

THE following Memorandum was found de tached from the Diary, and was intended, no doubt, to commemorate the gracious assist ance of the Father of Mercies, in enabling him to resist with firmness and humility, a temptation that was presented, and which oceurred previously to any remark made in the Diary. Though it appears to be of a pecukar nature, we hope it may prove useful in encouraging others to seek for Divine assistance, and to endeavour continually to live near that Holy Power which can protect, preserve, and give strength and ability to resist and overcome all evil; as we faithfully seek thereto.—It instinctively shews us that none are exempt from temptation, and how essential it is to fulfil the injunction of our blessed Lord himself, uttered to his immediate followers: "What I say unto you, L say unto all,-Watch."

This evening a temptation of a very deep die was presented to me; but, through the merci

ful kindness of Him who sleepeth not by day, nor slumbereth by night, I was not only enabled to meet it without emotion, but even felt pity for the individual who made the proposal; and the language of one formerly was brought to my recollection with freshness at the time: "How can I do this great wickedness and sin against God!" I did not feel it to be my place to say much on the subject, but simply to repress it in a few. words; which I hope was done in humility, and with thankfulness to that Power which I trust and believe was near to preserve me at the time. I have for some time past felt very poor, and almost sripped of all good, except a desire for preservation; but let me not despair or even repine, since He who is a present help in the needful time, has thus graciously evinced himself at hand; for surely not by my own might or power, could I have so acted on this occasion.

The following paragraph was written after a close trial, under which he felt conscious integrity; and after alluding to it, he concludes in this manner :

I sincerely desire that this threatening of the rod, may have the right effect; and under feelings of reverent thankfulness, and I trust deep

humility, the breathing of my soul was, that whatever trials the Almighty may see meet to dispense, he may never permit me to do any thing whereby reproach may be brought on the pure truth, of which I have been making profession.

The following remarks were found without dates, but being considered to contain instruction, are also inserted here.

The practice which is so prevalent in the present day, of calling the Scriptures the "Word of God," it is to be feared, has a tendency to prevent people from looking beyond them to that Eternal Word and Spirit, by which they were given forth; and encourages them to take up a rast short of the true rest. Now I will venture to say that this is a term whice they do A not, in any part of them, apply to themselves. On the contrary, in many, very many parts of them, the distinction is pointedly made between the outward written law, and the inward one. "The word is very nigh unto thee, even in thy mouth and in thy heart, that thou mayst do it." Surely this cannot mean the Scriptures.

"Behold, the days come, saith the Lord, that I will make a new covenant with the house of

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