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views of divine revelation, so as to console my mind, and render the prospect of death and futurity pleasingly desirable; it is from him alone from whom proceeds every good and perfect gift. For of him, and through him, and to him are all things to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen.

Should you find the perusal of the following Narrative worth your notice, you are left, with the consent of my wife and child, to do with it as you think it deserves. It will matter nothing to me, I shall be beyond the reach of flattery or contempt. But if any thing should be found in it, in the least useful to any poor sinner, God will have all the glory.

G. FOXWELL.

A SINNER SAVED.

My meditation of Him shall be sweet; I will be glad

in the Lord.

CHAP. I.

His Conduct in early Life, and his Entrance into the Army.

WHATEVER the different opinions of men may be respecting the direction and government of universal nature, that there is a wheel within a wheel, by which God, in infinite wisdom, in a marvellous manner directs all the motions of time, and effects all the purposes of his own will in the salvation of his own people, is clear to every pious attentive mind. For my own part, when I trace the footsteps of Divine Providence through the changing scenes of my life, and look back on the way the Lord hath led me all my days to the present moment, I cannot help exclaiming with astonishment, How great

are his signs, and how mighty are his wonders!

It is with this view I, trust, in humble gratitude, to keep in mind a lively sense of those distinguishing marks of Divine Providence which have attended my life: I record this short Narrative, hoping that nothing will appear in it but what is calculated to express the disposition of a mind truly humbled under the sensation of such amazing goodness. Indeed, my mind has long been impressed with a sense of it, and circumstances have so freely, clearly, and forcibly occurred to my recollection, that I could not possibly refrain from it.

To speak of every minute circumstance from the early period of my life, would be a task too great for my present situation. What I have more particularly in view, is some of those leading dispensations which appeared peculiarly calculated to bring about the purposes of God in my salvation, and keep alive the remembrance of them in my breast, as a sweet savour of his goodness, through the remainder of my pilgrimage.

In my childhood, I was much attached to the Pilgrim's Progress; reading it doubtless as a history, more for the peculiarity of the lan

guage, and manner of address, than from the matter and import of the subject. Also, Dr. Watts's Psalms and Hymns, particularly those which treated on death and judgment: these I often took with me into the fields, and read them when alone with great attention and affection But this was more the effect of my natural disposition, and a religious education, than a knowledge of, or desire after the enjoyment of salvation by Jesus Christ; for as I grew up, those impressions wore off, and I gave up myself to company, and the gratification of my lusts in the pursuit of those enjoyments suited to my carnal inclinations. This I did to a very great degree; for in the year 1759, having been led captive by the devil at his will for a consider ́able time, and giving full vent to the gratification of my inordinate passions-(sabbath-breaking, disobedience to my parents, undutifulness to my master, pride, rebellion, and extravagance) at length I found myself so enthralled and entangled, that I could no longer support my character. Being only an apprentice, my allowance was too small to maintain my extravagance.

This being the case, I began to form some plan in order to extricate myself out of the dif

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ficulties in which I was involved. After many resolves at the council-table of my poor wicked heart, it was determined that I should leave my master, and seek for employment at some distant place, where I might enjoy the full fruit of my labours, the better to gratify my inclinations, and extricate myself out of the difficulties I was then in.

To this temptation I gave way, acquainting one or two only of my most intimate associates with the course I intended to take, leaving my poor disconsolate parents and friends to form their own conjectures respecting the cause of my absence. The evening before my departure, it being the Lord's day, I had a more convenient opportunity of providing myself with such articles as were necessary for my journey, without being suspected. Accordingly I rose early the next morning, as if going to my stated labour; instead of which 1 pursued the track for Bath, twenty-one miles from Wotton Underedge the place of my nativity. There I halted for refreshment; after which I pursued my journey for Bradford, Wilts, calling at the villages by the way in hopes of employment, but without success. When I arrived at Bradford, to my great satisfaction I succeeded upon my first ap

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